I was ready to lose my appetite on this drug. That’s the point, right? That I would no longer have my constant urge to eat.
I didn’t expect how that would domino.
For example, Thursday night I came home and looked at all the food I had available to me. Half the things would require cooking. One fourth would require heating. One fourth could be eaten cold. I chose the cold option. Usually I would take the time to cook, and even enjoy it, because at the end I’d have a delicious meal. But now? At the end I will have an adequate meal. So why cook, or for that matter, heat?
You know what else? I can’t shop for groceries anymore. I wandered around the store today for an hour wondering what to get. I thought, “Carrots. That would be smart.” Fifteen minutes later, no lie, I chose carrot sticks, because I could eat them out of the bag but also if I were someday motivated to make one of the three roasts waiting in my freezer then the chopping was at least halfway done.
I was also hoping to pick something up for a get-together where 75% of the attendees are on this same drug. You know what? I can’t pick food that will whet someone else’s appetite when I am are longer in touch with my own appetite. I went with Cheeto Puffs because that’s what I always bring. I considered getting wee little money-sized gift bags and putting in one puff per bag. I thought about a charcuterie board because that’s just a lot of little things. I still think I might make sugar-free chocolate covered macadamia nuts rolled in chopped honey pecans. I would bring one per person.
I read recently that some restaurants are serving a meal of 1 slider, five french fries, and a tablespoon of ketchup. This is smart. I need them to get on GrubHub and deliver that food to me, because I can’t be bothered to put on shoes or get out of my car for it.