Nausea: At the end of week three, the nausea is minimal. I can eat slowly, and as long as I don’t eat anything after seven, I’m okay.
Hunger: Lord, I am so, so hungry now that I’m not as nauseated. I also know I’m a stress-eater, and this week has been pretty stressful on all fronts. This week, I felt hungry, I put tasty food in my mouth, and for the first time it felt flat. Tasted the same, but no emotional impact. What will this mean? Heroin? Will I start shooting up heroin? (Oh, and that front, next year there are supposed to be pills available instead of shots.)
Guilt: I look online and people spend a lot of energy justifying taking these drugs, especially if they are diabetic and it’s been prescribed by a doctor. Here is mine: I’ve again hit the point where I have maxed out my weight to where it’s uncomfortable. I’ve been here twice. In the past if I eat more carefully I’ll hit a 3 lb monthly weight loss. With these drugs, I’ll eat more carefully and hit a 5 lb monthly weight loss. If I had a choice between two investments, both with the same penalties and fees, and one returned 3% on my investment, and the other returned 5%, well obviously I’d pick the one with a higher return.
At the end of this coming week I am set to bump up to the next dose. Let’s see if I can stick it out. And if I turn to heroin.